Boot Camp Day 8 (Feeling great?)

This morning was really tough for me to get out of bed. I am tired and have been under some emotional stress as well. But the girls from this boot camp are so great that I just did not want to miss a day. We did lots of different exercises and had fun like always, and I got through it (after griping a few times) Above you will see a  picture of my Dad, who passed away on April 10th, 2009...just one week shy of a month after this picture was taken from a heart attack/blockages. It was also my daughter's 1st birthday. I need to keep getting up and exercising each morning. My brother's wedding was a great way for all of us to be together one last time...I miss my parents so much right now. I can't do this to my kids.

I am so glad that I have a network of women around me to help me get through. We are going to be doing a weight loss study for 9 weeks that tackles the emotional end of eating. I will post the book info when I have it in my hands. Maybe this could help others too.

My son, Jack, who is 3 has been playing video games (specifically mario kart) for the Wii, and is REALLY good at it. I don't want him playing all the time, but it has really REALLY calmed down the behavior issues that he has been having lately. Any advice on this subject would be greatly appreciated.

Hope you all had a great day!
~Nyky

Looking past boot camp

What if I could transform myself, my body, my life, my mark on my kids life? Like a butterfly? (I don't mean to be corny...but it would be a drastic transformation on my part)

I am SO excited about the opportunity that getting healthier is providing me. I am going to join Pudget's 30 day Challenge, and I am going to continue working out with the group from my boot camp three hours a week. I was also asked to consider running a race in November that is 9 MILES long... It's call the Run for the Diamonds. I can't imagine doing that.

Pudget is going to do a 1/2 marathon in April, and is working so hard to get there...and to think at this time last year she was only a few pounds lighter than I am now. Makes me think. I am hearing what if I fail?, what if others WANT me to fail? and other nonsense that keeps me in this fight for my body.

I have been overweight for most of my life. I remember when I gained 20lbs after spending a big majority of my summer with my grandmother. My parents were overwhelmed with my mother's illness (she was sick quite a long time before her death). I think I was about 9 or 10 at the time. The trauma of being away from my parents, and thinking that my mom was going to die are still with me. I feel like I have to overcome more than just eating better. The emotions are what get me every time. Why can't I do this? I don't have to win...I just have to participate to win in this situation, right?


Thinking....
~Nyky

Day 6 of Boot Camp and Fundraiser for the House of Hope

Hey there everyone! I survived the 6th day of Boot Camp and I still love it! I weigh in at weight watchers tonight...so cross your fingers for me! We are doing such wonderful things like yoga, pilates, aerobics (to 80's music!) and learning about each other. I can't wait to be part of this group long term. I feel genuine love from the ladies in the group so far.

Jessica from pudget 1 and I are putting together a benefit for our local chapter of the House of Hope in Danville, Pa. You can check out the House of Hope website by clicking on the name. If anyone makes, sells or has items we can auction off to benefit these great girls that would be great!

Hope you are all having a great day!

Take care,
~Nyky

"Weak" one down....;)

I will be 30 years old one month from today!

This is a picture of my husband and I last year at this time (I was about 5 months pregnant). I know that I was pregnant...but that jacket still fits me and I have a seven month old. I really need to lose the weight.

I hope that I can start strong in my weight loss journey. I worked so hard all week, and I took a sneak peak at the scale and GAINED! GAINED! If I took a bite I wrote it down in my tracker. Why did that happen??? But I feel better so I have to take that into consideration. So sorry that I did not keep blogging last week. We had internet/modem issues that did not allow me to get on the internet for a few days. Days 4 and 5 of the boot camp went great! Something about getting my body moving, getting out of the house everyday, and being on a schedule felt so good! Tomorrow starts week two! Wish me luck...:o)

Boot Camp Day 3 (I survived!)

Ok...so this picture is what my "fat" and my "other fat" was doing today during jumping jacks. I was jumping and doing all the right things, and my belly kept slapping (which is the only word that i can use...which stinks) against my body. Just like two cars on the street...my belly and my hip area should not be connected by a bumper!

We did aerobics and self defense among other things today...and we are ALL SORE! But in a good way. I have to have my body fat tested with calipers tomorrow...eek! I am ready for it though. I know how gross I felt after the jumping jacks today, and I want to remember that feeling for a while. Long enough to fix it. For those of you that have been through this, do you have any techniques/tricks that kept you motivated?

I will say that i have had more energy the last few days. But I am sure that you are thinking...something like it's just the first week...(me too a little). I just pray that it works out that I can keep motivated.

More importantly, my depression level is really decreasing with the exercise. I have anxiety issues that keep me from being motivated...this boot camp has really helped.

Have a great night!
~Nyky

Boot Camp Day 2

What a beautiful picture of a delicate flower. I felt so "fragile" while doing our boot camp today. Like if I kept going at points during the exercising that I would break. I just haven't pushed myself in a long while...(too long). We had a kick boxing instructor come and we really worked hard! I felt so out of shape and realized how much my body was NOT used to moving. It bothered me enough that I started to tear up and bawl when I saw a woman in her sixties doing all of the exercises and I had to take a break for water. My endurance just isn't there....YET. I know that I have such potential to dance and play with my kids. I have the chance still to get to a healthy weight, and look good. But most of all...i can FEEL good again. My friend's husband posted a pic of her after an incredibly successful year of weight loss that said "my hot wife" the other day. How wonderful did she feel after that? I want my husband to feel that way about me too. I know he loves me and is attracted to me, but I want him to be that proud too.

This boot camp is going to be a struggle to get through for me, but I feel so revived by all the stretching and dancing and kick boxing. It's such a great thing to have other people there with you who have the same goals. One of the instructors has lost over 100lbs and really looks good. I worry about the loose skin that can occur from a lot of weight loss like I have to make. She said something to the effect that she would much rather have the loose skin than the heart disease. Boy do I understand that. As my birthday approaches in Feb, I am more and more angry and frustrated with my parents for leaving me so soon. I WILL NOT DO THAT TO MY KIDS! Not by life choices anyway.

Enjoy this pic of my daughter...I am hoping she doesn't have to struggle with weight like I do!


I hope you are all having a great day!

Take care,
~Nyky

Boot Camp Day 1

I am so blessed that there is a FREE boot camp offered at my church for the next two weeks. Five days a week! I am so lucky because we just are not in a financial position to be joining a gym (just yet...;o) I went this morning for 3 hours. We did regular stretching, we wogged around our gym, played volleyball, used an exercise ball (for the first time ever!), got weighed in, measured, and ended with yoga... and felt so loved while doing all of these things.

I didn't think I would ever do yoga again after a mishap at a yoga class in my early twenties....(yoga class was such a 'gas'...i am still embarrassed) But I did, and I liked it. I think what I like about this class so much is that it encompasses a lot of different elements, and keeps you busy. It did not feel like we were there for three hours, that is for sure!

Sooo...it's time to be accountable. I weighed 221.8lbs today when I went in. My measurments were taken of the following areas:

tricep
chest
bust
waist
hips
thigh
(I will post them later tonight along with a "before" picture!)
I was able to do 37 crunches in a minute
I was able to do 31 wall push ups

It's not easy to see those numbers. It's not easy to realize that I have had so much time to make this "weight" thing right. But I can't worry about that anymore. My kids deserve to have me at their 30th birthday parties. Something that my parents will not able to do for me in February. I would love to be under 200 for my birthday, but that is not going to happen for me I am sure. But 210 by 2/10 might!

If you too, are on a journey of your own, whether it be for weight loss or financial, I hope that you are able to find something that works for you to get through. I am praying that this boot camp will give me the "push" go get over the 33lb weight loss that I have had since I had my son in June of 09. I just can't do anymore on my own.

Take care,
~Nyky

Tupperware's Honey Southwest Roasted Pork

This recipe was so tasty and EASY to make! The seasoning is the Southwest Chipotle seasoning by Tupperware. I try not to sell something that I wouldn't buy myself. So I tried this recipe, since the pack of seasoning was $6.50. I thought...it better be really good for that price....you only needed a tablespoon for the recipe. It will last quite a while. My husband even ate it (which is no small feat).

Let me know if you want the recipe!

~Nyky

Going to plan my meals for this week.

We have a crazy week here at our house this week. I have to work 5 nights this week doing parties and my husband is working overtime with it being the "end of year" for his company. I see a lot of fast food in my future if i don't play my cards right. I signed up for a 30 day free trial of "Plan to Eat" off of Orgjunkie's blog. I haven't used it yet...and it's been a few weeks. I am going to try it today...and Orgjunkie is hosting a giveaway for a year's membership ($37 value) away on her site. Check it out!

I am looking for a healthy/lower fat version of beef stew. Anyone have an idea where I can find a good one?

OK 2010...Bring it!

I hope that this message finds everyone well and rested in the beginning of the year!

Two years ago...at about this time, I got the phone call that my mother, who was in hospice care, died. My poor dad fell asleep after watching every breath she took for over a week. The nurse said that so often, those who are dying wait until no one is looking/hovering to let go. Last year, I was pregnant with my third child, and was so worried about my dad's emotions I did ok. This year, since Dad is gone too....not a great day. I over ate (horribly) and feel so blue.

Why am I telling you this? Because like so many of us struggling with weight issues, there is always a reason for me to overeat. NOT ANYMORE! I am hoping that through the support of other bloggers, and from my friends, that I can overcome this "need" to eat all the time. I really do feel a rush of pleasure when I have something in my mouth that is salty or sweet. I am interested in how other people overcome this issue. So if you know of another blog about weight loss or coping...let me know.

My husband and I have been on a reorganizing tirade for the last two weeks and it feels GREAT to get in some kind of order. We have so much clutter surrounding us that it is hard to feel like we are done but it is getting better!

Take Care,
~Nyky