Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Boot Camp Day 2
What a beautiful picture of a delicate flower. I felt so "fragile" while doing our boot camp today. Like if I kept going at points during the exercising that I would break. I just haven't pushed myself in a long while...(too long). We had a kick boxing instructor come and we really worked hard! I felt so out of shape and realized how much my body was NOT used to moving. It bothered me enough that I started to tear up and bawl when I saw a woman in her sixties doing all of the exercises and I had to take a break for water. My endurance just isn't there....YET. I know that I have such potential to dance and play with my kids. I have the chance still to get to a healthy weight, and look good. But most of all...i can FEEL good again. My friend's husband posted a pic of her after an incredibly successful year of weight loss that said "my hot wife" the other day. How wonderful did she feel after that? I want my husband to feel that way about me too. I know he loves me and is attracted to me, but I want him to be that proud too.
This boot camp is going to be a struggle to get through for me, but I feel so revived by all the stretching and dancing and kick boxing. It's such a great thing to have other people there with you who have the same goals. One of the instructors has lost over 100lbs and really looks good. I worry about the loose skin that can occur from a lot of weight loss like I have to make. She said something to the effect that she would much rather have the loose skin than the heart disease. Boy do I understand that. As my birthday approaches in Feb, I am more and more angry and frustrated with my parents for leaving me so soon. I WILL NOT DO THAT TO MY KIDS! Not by life choices anyway.
Enjoy this pic of my daughter...I am hoping she doesn't have to struggle with weight like I do!
I hope you are all having a great day!