What a beautiful picture of a delicate flower. I felt so "fragile" while doing our boot camp today. Like if I kept going at points during the exercising that I would break. I just haven't pushed myself in a long while...(too long). We had a kick boxing instructor come and we really worked hard! I felt so out of shape and realized how much my body was NOT used to moving. It bothered me enough that I started to tear up and bawl when I saw a woman in her sixties doing all of the exercises and I had to take a break for water. My endurance just isn't there....YET. I know that I have such potential to dance and play with my kids. I have the chance still to get to a healthy weight, and look good. But most of all...i can FEEL good again. My friend's husband posted a pic of her after an incredibly successful year of weight loss that said "my hot wife" the other day. How wonderful did she feel after that? I want my husband to feel that way about me too. I know he loves me and is attracted to me, but I want him to be that proud too.
This boot camp is going to be a struggle to get through for me, but I feel so revived by all the stretching and dancing and kick boxing. It's such a great thing to have other people there with you who have the same goals. One of the instructors has lost over 100lbs and really looks good. I worry about the loose skin that can occur from a lot of weight loss like I have to make. She said something to the effect that she would much rather have the loose skin than the heart disease. Boy do I understand that. As my birthday approaches in Feb, I am more and more angry and frustrated with my parents for leaving me so soon. I WILL NOT DO THAT TO MY KIDS! Not by life choices anyway.
Enjoy this pic of my daughter...I am hoping she doesn't have to struggle with weight like I do!
I hope you are all having a great day!
Take care,
~Nyky
I applaud you for pushing through and doing the boot camp. That sounds really hard. If you are like me, you will be surprised how fast your endurance and stamina increases.
ReplyDeleteI too don't want to leave my children early by my own life choices - that would break my heart.
Your little girl is darling! :)
Diane~
ReplyDeleteThanks for the applause. It means a lot to me! I hope that the stamina and endurance keeps lifting. I was able to get so much more done today than in the past few weeks!